Sooo, It’s been a ridiculously long time since I’ve posted. I’ve been thinking about for a few weeks, but have been falling short every time. Why? Part of me is terrified of how potentially long this post could be considering everything that’s been going on in the last month + since my most recent post (and who really has time to 1) Write it, and 2) Read it. haha.) And the other part of me just has no idea where to begin.
I’ve gotten beyond that point in my blog where I merely want to document what’s been going on. I’m going on my 6 month of Internship (HALFWAY POINT, HOLY COW!!) and now it’s all about reflecting. What have I really learned about myself? What has this little church with a big heart in the middle of the Hispanic Ghetto taught me about ministry and God himself? There’s been a lot to the learning process, and not all of it has been positive. There have been days where I have felt like crying from the weight of the impossible looming over my head, and then sometimes I have literally skipped into the office because God is so GOOD and I want everyone to know it!
If I could sum everything up into one little blurp, it would be this… I read a few weeks ago, another blog posting that someone had shared on Facebook (Here’s the link, if you never saw it- it’s a good one: http://www.relevantmagazine.com/god/yes-god-will-give-you-more-you-can-handle) To sum it up the guy talks about how we like to reference a verse from 1 Corinthians that tells us that God will not let us be tempted beyond anything that we can bear… The kicker to this is that if God had intended for us to be able to function without Him, then there would have been no reason for a relationship to begin with, and then we might as well have been just been born into a pile of sludge instead of a human-a complex, dynamic being created in the image of God. I think the day that I woke up and realized that I can’t do ANYTHING without God was the day that ministry started to make more sense…
With October being Cancer Awareness month, I’ve had some really great conversations with people about their experiences with cancer. People came to realize that their lives could at any point- take a drastic change. And it was at that point that I realized that my life has never been about ME. It’s never been about that girl from Alaska who traveled so far to go to school in Minnesota, how she’s traveled all around the country in the last 3 years, and how now she’s getting to go to Florida to work in a church- actually this just goes to show me that my life has been completely in God’s hands since it all started. Nothing has been coincidence- God’s had a plan and reason behind it all from the beginning, and he knew exactly how he was going to use this ridiculous Lord of the Rings fan with a phobia of bugs to glorify HIM and share the message of his Kingdom! We hear people say things like “God has done this in my life..” or “God helped me overcome this…” God isn’t just a Miracle Worker, or someone who helps you turn your life around, He is GOD and he chooses to have mercy us who certainly do not deserve it, so that we can spend eternity with Him. There really shouldn’t be any aspect of me, me, me here… It should all be about Him, Him, Him. And that’s where the nuts and bolts finally went together. As soon as I got out of my head that MY Internship was the start of MY ministry, and that God doesn’t give me more than I can handle, because we were never intended to do anything without Him in the first place, my outlook on things has gotten significantly easier. Don’t get me wrong, it’s not like I’ve just propped my feet up on my desk and said: “Welp, if the Holy Spirit wants this Bible Study to go smoothly tomorrow, then He’ll provide me with the exact words…”, but after being a part of this weekend, where more than 500 people stepped foot onto our campus and I was running around like a chicken with my head cut off- it was hard NOT to see, that God is SO much bigger then me and what I think I can do on my own, because the truth is: nothing.
On another note of this weekend, yesterday was our Reformation celebration! Not only was it a great reminder that I’m getting rusty on my Theology, but that God raised up Martin Luther to BOLDLY and fearlessly proclaim the Gospel message to everyone! We were reminded that in our small(ish) community, God has blessed us with so many resources to glorify Him and here we stand! We can do no other…
Here are some pictures of this weekend and what’s been going on in the last month!!
The article from the Plant City Observer on “Trunk or Treat” from Saturday the 26th: http://plantcityobserver.com/2013/10/26/photo-gallery-hope-lutheran-church-trunk-treat/
From our Reformation dinner after the service!!